well basicly im pathetic i have a very very low self esteem i hate myself and im sure every one hates me too i feel like i dont desreve no one and some times people take it the rong way but its just me and my stupidness well the only thing that helps me is cutting it makes me feel so in control and so alive diffrent but good im a loser like that but some times on some days im actually happy certain things or people will make me feel wanted but i still will always feel like an outcast

emo punk rock my fav. band SENSES FAIL the best band of all time, afi, from first to last, taking back sunday, funeral for a freind, the honaray title, panic at the disco, matchbook romance, my chemical romance, slipknot, nightmare of you, underoath, the matches, rancid, tiger army, the used, the offspring, silverstien, scremo, the doors, the cure, hidden in plain view, chevell, and much more but i cant think right now ....wait why the fuck am i doing this no ones going to read it any way